Here I go again...

nobody@vox.com(Alexa) — Thu, 10 May 2007 07:07:02 -0700

...On my own! :)

My husband and I called it quits. After 1 year of dating and 3 years of marriage, we just realized it wasn’t working. And there was no hope that it would ever work. As much as I love him, he’s a fucking asshole! Really. I feel like I did all I could, and he just didn’t care enough to try. Until I walked away, of course. Because after that he was calling me constantly and trying to get back together. Really, how can I go back when I know this same thing could happen again? I saw the worst parts of him. THE WORST. I don’t know if I could ever look him in the face the same way.

He was a liar anyway. I could never trust him again. I think he was cheating on me. Actually, I know it. Multiple times. But fuck it, it’s over. I don’t want to ever feel sick to my stomach like that ever again.

So....as I said, here I go again on my own. That’s my new theme song :)

I’ve been officially divorced for only a few months, but we separated about 8 months ago. I don’t know if any of you have had a similar experience in life.....but WOW. Those first few months of freedom are insane. Absolutely insane. I didn’t realize the human body could sustain as much constant late nights and mass amounts of booze as I threw at it. Holy shit.

Anyway, I figured I would start a blog because I need to vent. Plus everyone is doing it! And yes, if you jump off a cliff so will I :)

Til’ later....
Alexa

The moral of this blog is: Don’t get married young!!!

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